A lot of people with chemical imbalances are also alcoholics. My faith in Jesus is what saved my life when I was 25. But when I turned 30 I received the diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia and it was intended by my family to keep it a secret. This brought on feelings of shame and inferiority to others. I had much anxiety about people finding out about my chemical imbalance.
So I wound up frequenting a neighborhood bar to be around people but never letting them get too close. I drank every night and was a functioning alcoholic. I finally got into Alcoholics Anonymous at 52 and am finally, genuinely happy without the two bottles of red wine a night.
In AA I have profound friendships, love and acceptance around like minded people. They get me and I get them. Although I don’t seriously regret the past, I do wish sometimes that I hadn’t taken so long to get this kind of help.
I am very happy every day with excitement and anticipation of each new day that I have. My hope is to live a long life.